Happy Birthday

Sue,


Our day to day life has changed so much since you left us.

We have changed in ways I can't even explain in words...

But some things will never change.

The day after Halloween I still begin to feel panicked...anxious...and restless.


It's that familiar "oh shit" feeling that rushes over me...

As I realize it's November and your Birthday is only days away.

I begin the scramble to find just the right gift...

And the search for just the right words to express my love.


This year was no different.

The panic set in...

The anxiousness took over...

And I restlessly scrambled...but there was no finish line.


I knew your smiling face wouldn't be across from mine today as...

I handed you that gift...

Spoke those words...

Or held you in my arms.


My life is so different now in so many ways...

But my love for you remains the same...

Strong...true...and heartfelt...

Because I love you forever and always.


I'm doing my best to make you proud...

To live the life you would want me to.

But days like today...

Make me gaze into those beautiful moments from our past.


Thank you for the joy you brought me.

Thank you for the laughs and the tears...

Thank you for being by my side as I learned to be a man.

Thank you for the moments that will never fade away.


I love you...

I miss you...

I am forever changed because of you...


Sean